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I had the chance this past week to go to California with Steve and attend Catalyst West. A great conference for church leaders. To be honest I was really looking forward to getting away from my responsibilities as a mom for an entire week more then attending the conference. I arrived Saturday evening and thought I would begin to unwind and allow myself to sleep in and rest. I am simply not wired like that at all. I was up every morning around 6 a.m. and hit the gym when I could. Steve and I enjoyed our quiet breakfasts and deep conversations for the first few days and then conference life began. I was excited to finally put faces to the names that Steve has talked about for years. I was pleasantly surprised at how sweet everyone was and the amount of social Justice awareness that the conference supported.

I found myself loving the speakers and feeling fully engaged in the events that were taking place. I have had a heart for orphans and single mothers for many years and at times have been busy in ministries that touch on these areas. I have wanted our family to be involved in a ministry that we can pour into and one day take our children to see what we have been giving and praying for. We did adopt our first born and yes that is a blessing that we see growing everyday but I knew God had more. So I shared with Steve that I felt like we should “adopt” a compassion child. I know he doesn’t feel led to adopt another child into our home at this time yet I knew that God was calling us to open our hearts. So We know are sponsoring a little boy named Maxwell from Kenya. Shortly after I picked our little Maxwell I sat through another session that ignited my heart and poked at the areas that God had placed in me long ago. I realized at that moment that our obedience to “adopt” Maxwell was the activation button for the ministry that he birthed in me long ago. I realized that the uneasiness and the irritation that I had been feeling last month was the friction that would bring forth change today. I may be a mom of 4 and a wife but that is not all that I am. I needed this time away and the stillness of the days for God to stir in me the passions that have been laid dormant. I may not be able to go to Africa yet but I can pray, it may be to early to go to Haiti but I can pray, I may not have the financial flexibility to write the checks that I would love to but I can pray. I am believing for miracles this year. I am believing for God to deposit creativity into me to be able to raise money for orphans this year. I realized that I can loth in self pity and be overwhelmed by my circumstances or I can pray that God will help me to make away for the purposes he has put in me to shine.

My question for you today is what have you put on the shelf because of your busy life. We are all busy! However we can restructure our lives to fit in the passion God placed in us all long ago.


I had several really great conversations yesterday. I got some good insight into my gloomy state of mind and overwhelming frustration. The truth of the matter is a lot of what we are frustrated about and overwhelmed with is our own fault. For me it’s not putting this away right when I am finished with it or picking up the slack and not voicing my need of help at the time. I have great intentions for choir charts, tight schudules, and orginaization but I am horrible at follow through. I am a dreamer. I want to do so many things I sometimes feel like I am spinning in cirlces and it is my own caouis that is causing it. Not that all my craziness is my fault but I can only control how I react to the chaos.

I enlisted the help of  my husband to champion me. I know it sounds weird but I have had some friend of ours share with me how much they apperciate him and what an encourager he is. They said he made them feel that someone cared and believed in the dream that God placed with in them. Well I got to thinking, this resource is at my finger tips so why don’t I give it a try.
This morning I told Steve my thoughts and he said “giddy up”. He started teliing me what I needed to do to change my day. That always goes over so well at first!! I held my tongue because after all I did seek him out on this matter. I have to say that his words of wisdom did help me adjust my outlook on the day. Even though the kids were screaming and I don’t mean crying I mean screaming like viens popping out of the neck kind of screaming!
However the day did improve with slight melt down by both mommy and kids. I am thankful that I can share with him my frustration and I am really thankful that God held my toung so he didn’t get the brunt of it.
I am working on changing my outlook. The Lord makes every day and we need to rejoice and be glad in it. This is so much easier to swallow when life is smooth sailing but true character grows when it is put to the test.
So today is ending at the gym and helping out a friend. Thank you so much for all the prayers today. I know the God answers prayers and hears our heart cries.

This past year has brought many big changes to our family. We moved from mobile Alabama to Nashville Tennessee in June. We are back in the church world and doing life with amazing friends that feel like family. I am staying home with Isaiah and the twins and losing my mind!!!. Isaiah is being home-schooled this year. He has been diagnosed with Aspergers. It is an autism spectrum disorder. He is high functioning however he struggles to understand and comprehend the same way as you and I do. He is a bright boy and I am sure will doing amazing things in life. Ashlyn is 7 and doing great in public school. She has a best friend and is loving life. The twins are 2 and kicking my butt daily and keeping score!

I started blogging several times and quit several times!!! I think I just needed to find the place where God was calling me to be.
I am going to be very honest and straight forward. I am overwhelmed by this life that God has allowed me to have. I go through the day thinking I can’t be the only mother that wants a long vacation by herself sitting on the beach sipping a drink. Our pastor preached an amazing message this past Sunday and it hit me square in the jaw. He was talking about fear crippling who and what God has called us to be and do. He was talking about community and how we were never meant to do this life alone. I am horrible at asking for help or showing weakness. Most of the time I laugh and joke about what I am really feeling while dying on the inside. I am writing this blog in hopes of connecting with other mothers who feel overwhelmed and are in need of friends who understand and are not afraid to put it all out there. I want to share my life with you and hope that you would share yours with me. I believe that we can learn from each other and hold each others hands up when we just can’t seem to do it by ourselves anymore. I am blessed with a great husband and four wonderful kids but I sometimes get tired. Does anyone else ever feel tired and worn down by your day to day routine? Does anyone have any fun and creative ways to spruce up life during these gloomy cold winter days?

I wanted to include a great link for more information on Aspergers for those interested

Shredded BBQ Beef

chuck roast

1 jar BBQ sauce

5 glove fresh garlic


In a large crockpot place the meat, 5 gloves of garlic (whole),and 1 jar BBQ sauce cook on low all day. 30 minutes before  your ready to serve shredded the meat and and allow it to soak of the juices.

We love this on baked potatoes, whole wheat buns, or just by it self with some beans and corn on the cob.

I am so excited for the fall. I find myself wanting to put on warmer clothes yet it is 89 degrees outside!! I love the fall. It is my favorite time of year. I think that families come together around this time for warm meals and football games. I love Sunday afternoons with Steve on the couch and a game on the tv. It is relaxing to me to see our family enjoying each other and hanging around outside. I love to see the kids jump in the leaves and their little faces as they catch a ball in the air. There is something in me that loves picking apples and making fresh apple pie. Getting pumpkins as big as the kids and carving them. I just love it all the way around!!! So as the nights begin to cool down my minds drifts to these fun family days and a smile appears on my face. It’s the simple things that make life feel complete.

My husband always tells me that the little things add up. He is usually talking about shopping! This is such a true statement in so may ways. In life the good things that you do for your spouse add up and the bad do too. When you fight it is always the bad that get thrown back up but never the good. I am trying in my life to focus on the good things about my husband. I want him to know how very proud of him I am. He is an amazing father, husband and friend. He is the hardest working man I know and I am thankful for the way he takes care of us. I want him to always feel that our home is a soft place to fall and a safe haven. I know we both have made many mistakes throughout the last 11 1/2 years of our marriage but the only way to move forward is to not look back. I am happy to hear him say “he can’t wait to get home “,and he “misses us when he is away”. I feel very blessed to have such a great family and I don’t take any of it for granted. So, for me I wanna try and do the little things that matter to him more often and lay aside the negative comments and unrealistic expectations that I at times put on him.

Are you running toward your dreams or are you running away from your realities? In life we are always running in one direction or another. If your running toward what your passionate about it is always an adventure. You are more willing to take chances and step out of your comfort zone. If your running away from your realities you will try to find a way to hide. You will be afraid to take chances because you will be afraid of failure. when your running to something their is always great expectations but when you run away from something there is always disappointment. I wanna run toward something everyday of my life. I don’t wanna run away from things I want to meet them head on and be able to move on. Where are you today?

Last night I was frustrated and I mean like hair standing straight out on it’s ends frustrated.

I made a nice meal and placed it in front of the twins who in turn took a couple bites and told me they were done. They then proceeded to rub their spaghetti all over themselves and then they started to fling it at one another. ( Somebody please call nanny 911!)Don’t they understand the effort it takes to make a nice meal or the cost for that matter. Of course they don’t they are just babies. As I was getting the twins into the bath I started thinking about all the messes we as adults get ourselves into and how much more frustrated with us God must get because it’s not just a simple dinner mess it’s our lives.

I held the thought for a bit and contemplated it in my mind. Why do we get ourselves into so many messes as adults. My children do it because they are exploring the world around them and they are testing limits. Sometimes this is the case with adults as well. I think that the messes come from a place of worry and fear as we get older. We worry about the future and we have a hard time with faith so we begin to take matters into our own hands and the fear of letting go and letting God have control is just to much of a risk. I could just picture God setting a table with everything just so and then all of a sudden we take what he made us and try to fling it around and make it stick in the world we created for ourselves aside from Him.

I know this may seem like a heavy matter over some spilled spaghetti. I guess this is how God deals with me in this stage of my life. My life is filled to the brim with kids and responsibilities but I have to say that I do continue to pray and seek God through out my day and sometimes it’s in these crazy moments I see a picture in my mind such as this one above. So my question for you today is do you tend to worry and fear the future or do you try to let go and let God direct your steps?

You have probably heard that muscle weighs more then fat. It is not true in the since of 1 pound of muscle and 1 pound of fat would be 1 pound but it is true when you take into consideration the size difference.

This is such a great visual for you to see. As you workout and build muscle fat burns away. It is interesting in the since that you may have been 110 pounds when you were younger and never worked out and wore a size 4 and now you find yourself at 130 pounds and your able to wear a four. The scale is a great tool and a great starting point but in the end you have to remember that muscle takes up less room but does weigh the same. You would much rather be fit and toned then flabby and jiggly.

If you are like me you wish there was a magic button that you could press and all the fat would melt away. Well there is not a button, but hard work and disciple will be much more rewarding in the end.

It is important to figure out your body’s daily caloric needs. This is your BMR. This number is how many calories your body needs over a 24 hour period lying down but not sleeping. You will then add several other components to get your daily calorie expenditure. From that point you you will then see how many calories you can drop in your daily diet to get a healthy number and see results.

I am happy to do the calculations for you if you would like. You simply will need to give me your weight and height and your daily activities. If you are active and on the go or if you work behind a desk and live a more sedentary life.

I know your thinking I am not going to put my weight out there for the word to see. So you can direct message me on twitter if you would like and I will keep your information confidential. jb_rewster

The important part of getting in shape and feeling better about yourself is having a starting point and an ending point. So that means you will have to step on a scale! Once you have done this you can determine how much weight you would like to take off and monitor it week to week. Once you have your goal get a notebook and keep track of your weight and inches. You will be shocked at how fast you will begin to see results when you become intentional about getting in shape.

It is a great idea to keep track of inched lost as well as calories because the scale may slow down as time goes on but the inches keep coming off.

where you should measure for inches

  • bust
  • waist
  • thighs
  • hips
  • upper arms

This is a great way to keep an eye on what is happing with your body.